Need to cheer myself up. Have just spent an hour reading the international news, and it's enough to make you shoot yourself, if only to make it go away. In last week's Advertiser, South Australia was described as a "happy island of safety in a troubled world," and the fact is, it's easy -- far too easy -- to sit here in the Adelaide suburbs and be oblivious to what's happening in the US, UK and parts of (though not all of) Europe. Once you get your teeth into the news and start to digest what's going on elsewhere ... well, "depressing" is an understatement. So --
Random beauty, to cheer myself up before I get back to work. I've a book to write, and I can't tackle it it in this frame of mind (thank you, facebook).
There's been times in the past when South Australia has, admittedly, been a place I only wanted to leave. My personal talents lie in writing, and before the Internet, it was extremely hard to get anyone overseas (publishers, editors, agents) to even acknowledge the fact one existed, with an Australian address -- and not even a Sydney address, at that.
For a considerable time, I'd thought the only way to get ahead was to leave; and in fact by 1995 I'd put out the feelers, made the first tentative explorations. Of course it came to nothing ... and in the fullness of time, it's probably all for the best.
If my efforts, twenty-five years ago, had borne fruit, I'd right now be living in America. Sure, married to Dave -- and the both of us at "ground zero," where people en masse don't seem to want to believe that the pandemic is real. Reading the news, as I did this morning, is a salutary experience. A wake-up of sorts. Not quite out of the blue, one comes to realize that one is, simply stated, better off right where one already is...
Well, now.
At this time I have two books finished and a third approaching finished, two drafts for two more books to be worked up, hopefully by the end of the year; and a fantasy trilogy to finish only after I've completed a stand-alone fantasy which can be shown, and hopefully sold, before the trilogy sees light of day. You can't sell a trilogy right off the bat. That's a lot of work already done, and just as much work left to do.
Mike and I are pretty much decided, it's a waste of time trying to secure agency representation and/or sell books before the pandemic is finished and the global economy is at least showing some signs of recovery. Until major publishers know the state of their own health, they won't be ready to take risks on unknown quantities ... new writers. So --
So ... "a happy island of safety in a troubled world," is it? Those words are very true. I weigh them
against "the future that might have been," if I'd gone through with plans, pushed and insisted, stomped my food and demanded to leave SA. Hmm.
All of which brings me back to where I began. The news is appalling, surreal, depressing. I only look at it about once a week; that's all I can bear. My heart goes out to Americans, British and certain Europeans (and I include Russia there) who're living with the reality, wrestling daily with their governments and also their brainless populations, who seem bent on mass destruction. And as for myself? Well, we've been in SA almost fifty years now. We can wait till this catastrophe sorts itself out before waving our arms around, trying to attract the attention of an American or English agent ...
On the understanding that this pandemic will end, that this virus can be defeated, that the world has a "global" future rather than finding itself a patchwork of isolated Covid-free regions and red-flagged no-go zones, suffering under a shambolic economy that can't fix itself. I don't even want to think about that. No one does. But I can't help wondering how many people must die before the general public in some of the sillier parts of the world wake up to themselves.
Hence, random beauty, to cheer myself up.